Amit Lakra
The Psycho Spirituality Integration program held at Matigarah, Siliguri, from the 3rd of March to the 11th of April 2025, with 17 participants, was an inner journey, leaving aside all preoccupation and delving deeper into myself to discover my true self. The fear that I faced in the beginning was the sedataphobia. I realized my life between making a living and making a life. I lived my life so far for the sake of living, but now decided to make and give life to others. I had been Picky most of the time, but now there is an invitation to be a picker to bring changes in my life as well as in others. There was a sense of space while talking to the people in everyday life and activities. Being true to myself led me to self-realization, self-knowledge, and body language manifested the inner feelings outwardly.
I had a good chance to tell my stories to my trusted sharing group, who listened to me attentively. I noticed lots of baggage, anger, hurt, trauma, grief, and abuse had slowed down my normal flow of life. They had become magnets to control my life, the dead rabbit that I carried for many years. The inner self introspection, contemplating over the inappropriate events, intention, and behaviors, was verbalized with the observations, thoughts, feelings, wish statements, and responses, bringing closure to the cases, resulting in positive energy vibes. The anger is not bad, but the expression of it is bad. I learned how to control my anger and emotions than they don’t control my life. I owned up to all my feelings and flaws of life, and began to share with others was the starting point to break through my limitations and gradually become a new person. There was an input session on wholesome communication. I wish more Jesuits would attend and benefit from the program. I express my gratitude to Fr. Amrit Rai, SJ, for providing me the opportunity and the encouragement of Fr. Juel, SJ, of the Nepal region. Thanks to Fr. Joseph Parakat, SJ, the Guru who accompanied me through the intense journey for the last forty days and forty nights.
